It’s been two years since our relationship ended
Many of my friends started to point out that I had changed a lot. I stopped going on different social gatherings because I wanted to be like him – being considerate and focusing on our relationship. (By the way, men’s aegyo is much more attractive, it’s killing!)
Gradually, I started to feel that maybe naesung and aegyo in reality had been a part of my nature all along. Maybe this “me” comes out when I meet a guy who makes me relax, and I don’t have to think too much about what he thinks about me. Maybe I was finally enjoying a moment of repose, showing who I really am, in a safe space free from conventional definitions of gender roles.
Through him, I learned relationship is like a mirror that reflects one another, because I realized it was he who had first engaged in some form of aegyo
I had never been the problem; I was fine the way I was in my entirety, whether independent, outgoing or girlish, and I could express myself fully if I was given space, without judgment. (περισσότερα…)